John Ryan 30 December 2013 Christopher, You lived. That is most important. Be sure to get some help. It is amazing that you can write about this publicly. My first attempt I was young and dumb. I came close to making a second attempt years later, but I was lucky and saw the signs. Googling how to kill yourself is a sign… I found a counselor who helped me work on how to handle life better. Life is better, tough, but better. Stay strong. Thanks for sharing.